Oh my gosh!

I have no posted in like, wow, eight months? That needs to change. I guess the reason being was the fact that I got myself a Tumblr account, and yeah that sort of took over my life. Sadly here I have very few followers, there I have hundreds. :(

Update on my life: I currently am in Germany, I have been living here since August, and I will return home in about a week. I cannot wait! I have hated it here, but I did gain a lot from this whole experience.

Overwhelmed by a sea of endless fury...

Yeah I totally came up with that title on my own ;)

Now to the meaning of this post. While yes, it is in fact about my lack of time to do anything fun anymore, it is also going to showcase some of my more recent photographs. Theyre from NYC, and more will be coming soon because I did just do a bunch of shots for my photo class at school, since I am failing it...along with three other classes...

ANYWAY! yeah. Ive been through a lot recently, hence my lack of posts and what not..but I am making a come back and it will be soon..aka after this week. I am really excited to work on my self portrait piece for school, I have a really interesting idea and I really hope it works. It involves me (of course), my roof, a chimney, a clear blue sky, and some modified angles :D..it will most likely look like crap, but I am going to try! I have to do three others ones as well, so I have a lot of work cut out for me, and I should probably hop on that.

Also there is something, someone, who I am starting to talk to, and they make me smile ;)..

I've been AWOL...

Im really sorry I haven't posted in such a long time. I have just been really really busy with everything. But I promise that a new post will be coming soon with a bunch of new pictures. So yeah, look out for them! :D

New Photo series idea/NYC...

As usual, I was wasting my time away on other blogs, in between exams, and I found a great inspiration for a shoot that I want to do in the future. The shot focuses on a single nude woman, with her hands covering her face. On her hands are eyes and a mouth drawn in a cartoon-ish manner. While this may not be the most original idea, I think it would be a lot of fun to shoot. Below is the image which I gained my inspiration from:

In other news, I seem to passing all of my exams so far, and also my friend issues are slowly being worked on. But that isn't the main focus in my life right now. I have other things to worry about; college, moving away for five months to a foreign country, relationships, school, THON, and so forth.

Also, I am going to NYC today/tomorrow. It is going to be very interesting but a lot of fun. I am bringing my camera along with me of course, but I really wanted to bring my film camera, but for some reason it decides to not work in the cold, and tomorrow its going to be way below freezing. I will just have to deal with my digital I guess. Those photos will take a little while to be uploaded but they will be eventually. I am also planning on my first LookBook posting, the photos will be taken tomorrow in NYC because I finally got my outfit I ordered from Topman. Anyhow...I need to sleep!

Credit: ObsessionMIA

I really wish I didn't have the urge to do this...

I really hate the fact that I am going to make a ranting post about friends and stuff, but I had the idea of writing on in the shower, and I just have the urge to do it. Its not going to be mean or anything, just showing my annoyances and wishes. So here I go...(I really say "So" a lot lol)

I miss you guys. Yeah I know I see all of you basically everyday, but I still miss YOU. You meaning not just your physical presence but your personalities as well. Now what I am saying goes out to A LOT of people, not just a few, but I am just combining it all together and each of you can take out of it what you want. As much as I hate to say, I am not sure if I feel like I can call you my 'best friends' anymore. We all used to be really close and it was building up for awhile, but now I feel like thats changed. I feel like we are all going in our different directions, whether it's with another or not. Again, we are literally and figuratively going in our different directions. As much as it sucks, I think its inevitable. You can disagree with me on this, but that is just how I see it. I've seen it happen before, but apparently I am always the only one that ever sees it. Maybe its because I have never had a group of friends for this long before, I don't know. It may seem silly that I am so paranoid and worried about this, but I just really miss what we used to have. Now I don't know if there is any specific reasons as to why things are changing, but in my mind they are. I know that we have our little issues but I feel like its different this time. To be honest, Im sort of tired of fighting to be friends with you guys. Like really, you are not worth it if I have to be the one that puts all the effort into it. To be honest again, lately I feel like you've been acting differently towards me. I dont know why, is it because you feel betrayed that I dont feel comfortable talking to you about things? If so, well seriously, thats your fault. You've set yourself up in this friendship to be the one that I don't go to if I have a problem. We talked about one aspect of this the other night, and well to be honest that changed nothing. And then when you gave me attitude the other night, yeah well you're not helping your situation out. So seriously, if you have something to say, just say it because I am done with being the one to approach you about everything. I am also done being the one that always starts the conversations. You can't complain to me about not talking to you or anything like that if you dont try and put in some effort in communicating with me as well. Like there is no way you can say to me "We haven' talked in a while. Its weird." and then expect me to be like "Oh my god I know!" when I had texted you multiple times and you never answered. Once again you are not helping yourself either. And if thats the way its gotta be where we dont talk for days, then I am going to let it be like that, I am done fighting to be your friend. Also, I am done (I am done with a lot of things) but I am done with letting you treat me like I am beneath you when ever I try to talk to you about a problem. I don't know what has gotten into you lately, but you constantly make me feel stupid when I try to talk to you about something. We always end up fighting about stupid stuff, and then you turn it all around on me and make me feel like I am being the over the top one, when in reality you just dont want to admit that I have valid points and most likely know more about the topic than you do. But I can never win with you.

Anyway. That is what is just currently on my mind. Expect some confrontation later because that is what I am planning on doing. You guys are ridiculous and I am starting to not think you are worth it anymore. Sorry for everyone (or no one) who decides to read this.

Weekend boredom...

These three images basically sum up the extent of my weekend...exciting right? Well the first one wasn't really from the weekend, but I did the editing on the weekend so I guess it represents how I spent a few hours. The second, yeah thats from Friday right before dark. My two friends and I decided to go to the park to take some photos and we stumbled upon this huge patch of ice over some sort of water, we're not really sure what it was, but I got some pretty nice shots from it. And then that brings us to the third image. That same night we went out to dinner at this little Asian place we love to go to. I chose this image just because I liked the structure of the table, and also because of whats going on in the back ground, plus the depth of field and slight bokeh. So yeah, that was pretty much my whole weekend. I didn't get to go out tonight for some odd reason, I don't care though. I took the SATs today and that was hell.

ALSO! I just got invited to LOOKBOOK and I am so excited. I haven't posted a look yet, mainly because I have a shot planned for myself in a new outfit which I haven't gotten yet and also I want the image to be taken in NYC, so you'll have to wait until February to get a look posted! But other than that...this is pretty much my life now. I also suggest checking my Flickr account out because I have finally uploaded some stuff to it, including a stop-motion animation video I had to do for school. Its pretty neat! 105 images all complied into one short video. I really want to make another one because they aren't really that hard, and it looks really cool with some effects you can do.

Im going to go watch "La Vie En Rose" now because I love that movie more than life itself.

Credits:

http://amoursuicidaa.blogspot.com/2008_09_01_archive.html

http://image.guardian.co.uk/sys-images/Film/Pix/pictures/2007/06/11/piaf460.jpg

Danny Boy...

So I am totally going to sound like a creep, but anyway, I think I have finally found a guy that I can totally trust...its weird. I would consider him to be my best friend, except he lives 4,000 miles away. That's what makes me worry. The next time I will see him will be in 7 months, and a lot can happen in that time. The one thing about him I like is the fact that there is usually always a two-way conversation going..its never just coming from me, like it used to be with some people. Anyway, today him and I were having a pretty deep discussion about some aspects of my life, and I just love how supportive he is of me. It makes me feel good, instead of stupid like I do with most of my friends. Another thing about him I absolutely love is the fact that when he comes home from the clubs and is pretty drunk, he will chat me on Facebook and will have a whole conversation with me. It just makes me feel wanted or something. Its weird, I know, but those feelings are things that have been lacking in my life lately. We usually say goodnight to each other, and then even good morning depending on how late I decide to stay up.

To the purpose of this post..I wanted to post an image that he sent me today that I fell in love with. I think he was sending it to me because it sort of related to our conversation, but just the fact that he would think to send it to me, it made me feel good. Once again, I am being weird, but I have never had a friend like this before. So below is the image that he sent me...I have no idea where he found it, so I do not claim that it is mine or anything. Enjoy :D

Feature: Cometothewildside...

This image comes from a blog entitled "Cometothewildside." I must say it is probably my favorite blog that I have stumbled upon. The hundreds of posts that its created Tim has put up are truly inspiring to me, and I love looking at his mix of high fashion/music/personal style/and personal photography. All of it is beautiful and I 'waste' many hours looking at his site mainly because I have nothing better to do during class. His posts of his own outfits can be seen on LOOKBOOK, but I usually just wait for him to upload his daily outfit. One of my favorites is one of the recent posts entitled "I Can Not Get Enough Of Black" which is seen below. I chose this outfit in particular not only because I like the photograph its self, but because the simplicity of the outfit is great. All black, and it looks very put together. I think its amazing how accomplished he is at such a young age, and he is definitely someone I look up to, although he is only a year older than myself. Check out his site Cometothewildside, and be sure to leave comments and stuff, because he really does deserve them!



Credit: Cometothewildside

Feature: LOOKBOOK...Andreas Trippel...

Again, just another user whose looks really please me. I love the first outfit. Everything about it, goes together well, and I really like his cardigan. Also I love the shirt in the second look, as well as his shoes. Everything about this kid is really cute, especially the next image...



I just love that one :D

LOOKBOOK.nu: "To the left, to the right & in front of!" by Andreas Trippel: "Blue Beanie, Zara Grey Cardigan, Selected Home Checked Scarf from P"

Feature: Flickr...TOREEE. "here i am."

here i am., originally uploaded by TOREEE..

Once again, another post via my Flickr account that I really dont use..oh well. So this girl is a friend of one of my friends, I have only met her once. But her work is truly beautiful. She has great creative ideas that I find very pleasing :D I sort of look at her work with some sort of inspirational quality. But in this specific image I adore the lamb. I think the contrast between the girl and lamb is unique and I find the lighting to be awesome. I like how the angle is sort of below the subject because its not just straight on, which gives the image....a different feel.

Feature: Flickr...Colin H. "Day 12: If and when"

Day 12: If and when, originally uploaded by Colin H..

I found this kid on LOOKBOOK, and then I saw the link to his Flickr account. While I havent really utilized my Flickr yet, but I like using it to look and check out some others works. Colin's work is pretty impressive and I REALLY love his style. It is one that I like to possess myself in the future, I might try and work on this immensely while in Germany next year, when I fully start to begin working on my college portfolio.

"Stella! Hey Stella!"

Tonight I watched the film adaptation of my favorite play of all times. Tennessee Williams was a genius in my mind, with both "A Streetcar Named Desire" and "The Glass Menagerie" as two of my favorite pieces ever. I think that his symbolize is incredible and the worlds that he creates are something to be captivated by. The depth in which his characters go really allows for you to try and figure out what complex ideas and things are going on in their minds, and also in their lives. Williams is one of my favorite authors and his life is one that I find fascinating.

The Dark of the Matinee...

I absolutely love this song/band. Their sound is amazing and very pleasing to me. This song is one of my favorites, I am not quite sure why, but it is. The opening lines and the chorus are my favorite parts of the song. I decided to check out the video, and I must say it is one of my favorite music videos! I love the lead singer' voice, and also his hair!

Feature: LOOKBOOK... Oliver Gross...

Once again I found this user and really enjoyed his style. The second look is one of my favorites. I like the way the shirt stands out from the darks of the rest of the outfit, and it also complements his hair and skin. I really enjoy everything about his looks.

LOOKBOOK.nu: "Forrest day" by Oliver Groß: "Jack"

This series of posts made me smile...

Just saw these posts and I found them to be very creative, as a way to not only capture the outfit, but the emotion and also capture a creative image. Definitely put a smile on my face!

LOOKBOOK.nu: "Rock it like a Gentleman" by Vincent Van Reusel: "Arsenal Gray Blazer, Jimmy Choo for H"

A much needed ice cream break...

I really was craving some ice cream and this was just the right size to subdue the urge to shovel ice cream into my mouth...disgusting. Anyway. This is what hours of homework do to me XD. And yes...I do in fact write with ToyStory pens, everyday.

..oh and the pics are basically raw, not anything to show. lol.

One of my favorite looks...

This may possibly be one of my favorite looks recently. It is really simple and something that I would want to wear, and most likely will attempt to recreate at some point, with less of an effect because he wears it so perfectly. His other outfits as well are really nice and simple with is aesthetically pleasing to me. :)

From his bio on LOOKBOOK, I thought it was pretty adorable...

"i tend to see everything from a certain jaded romantic vantage point, and i wouldn't have it any other way."

LOOKBOOK.nu: "Wuthering Heights" by Michael Russo: "Urban Outfitters Knit Cap, J. Crew V-neck Tee, Lacoste Waffle Henley, Topman Toggle Hoodie"

I wish I could dress like this to school...

In my school, dressing like this would lead to a lot of ridicule...sadly. But this would be something I would love to wear if given the opportunity.

LOOKBOOK.nu: "My Schooluniform ." by Thomas Mudra: "Topman Blazer, School Bag"

Sunday is a day for rest...or for stress...

So who knew that my day was going to start off with such a...bang? Why is it that when we use that idiom, its usually something positive, yeah no, mine was pretty negative and set the tone for the rest of my day. Oh well...that is in the past now. I did however get past that whole sticky situation (one that I thought I would not be able to get past) and some good actually came out of it. I started to finally realize what a true friend is, and also who my true friends are. Obviously you were never one of them.
Your loss.
(and if you see this, sucks)
After I put him out of my mind, talking to my FRIENDS was something that I haven't really experienced before. So I guess I did gain something from it. I am currently watching Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire and it is a beautiful masterpiece in my mind.

I have also found another college that I am adding to my list of potential places to call home in the near future. Of course it is in NYC because that is where I am determined to make make my home. Other than that, I am just doing homework...German is killing me, I have no idea why he assigned us so much pointless work, oh well. Speaking of Germany. I am so thrilled by the idea that I will be living there for 5 months! I can not wait! Except that means 5 months with the aforementioned a**hole...oh well. :)

My two closest friends and I are also planning a road trip of some sort, maybe cross country, to do at the end of senior year. I am really excited :D because I have always wanted to do that.

This is enough for now...more pictures to come later.

Annie + Gaga + Cate = :D

So I stumbled across this video and thought it was pretty sweet. I love Annie Liebowitz's work and also that of Lady Gaga and Cate Blanchette, basically three wonderful things combined :D

"The Spirit of Casey's Tree"

So yeah, this was the only exciting thing that happened tonight for me. The tree is covered in thousands of pink lights in memory of a local girl that was killed during the summer. The house is right near mine, so my friend and I decided to walk over to it, and yeah I brought my camera. It was absolutely freezing out..but it was so worth it to see the tree in person. It has become sort of a local icon in the past weeks because it is just so beautiful and inspiring. The bottom picture is just some information about the tree and the circumstances that go around it and stuff. But yeah, definitely something that is better seen in person. If anyone wants to learn more about the girl, and the things that are being held in honor of her, please visit the memorial website and there is information about donations and other things.

Other than this, the other highlight of my day was seeing a production of the musical Wicked downtown...it was mind blowing! I am obsessed.

Slyvia <3

"I was supposed to be having the time of my life." - The Bell Jar

They say that that is what high school is supposed to be, the time of your life, but I could not disagree more. I am living the life of a teenager, but with the mind of an adult. I can not wait to escape this life next year, and move to Germany. But what a way to begin a blog about photography and stuff! Yeah, I'm an aspiring photographer and hope to go on to college and get a degree of some sort and then start working in the field... I probably wont however. But that is all up in the air. Enjoy.